And the Universe said Uno Reverse [p]

[Panda1440]

Icicleripple had talked, chatted with many dead cats in the afterlife dreams. She'd learnt from some other now long-dead medicine cats, spoken with family, underwent mysterious omens and nightmarish prophecies. All though, whilst still having a living breath. Not just a fake whiff of air underneath an equally fake sunhigh,, but rather one where she could taste- almost taste the world.

The deceased medicine cat stepped forward a little, looking down at the chaos she had left ThunderClan with. Aspenstar.. could have done better to say the least. Whether or not her former clanmates gave the molly another change though was in no one's control but theirs's.

Who would think, why would a cat so plagued by death in their life- why would the star's in the sky even think to take away the own body in which said cat could roam the earth in. For now though, she really couldn't do anything other then wait,.. and watch. As painful as it was.

Some day she would breathe in the familiar scent of those she loved,,
In the meantime her starry green eyes scanned the horizon from ontop of a small hill, looking up at a unnaturally blue sky. ..

[Panda1440]

"We'd run right through those nights
I'll never find my way back to you
Inside this labyrinth of lights"
- end of a life [song link]

After longlining looking down onto the dim lighting of a clearing that once held so much special place in her heart. Gassing upon of the now- cycle a clan breaking down with every pawstep forward any of her former clanmate's chosen path in the chaotic mist with such an urge to break the wall and interfere. Yet there wasn't anything really to be done. With Aspenstar's death, the former medicine cat just needed to step back.

She'd hunt for nice and plump mice in the forest's shade, trying her best to ignore the differences of the surroundings of the whole place. Ignoring any sigh of other cats,, it was a break. (from what? she hadn't been doing anything in the first place). Biting into unnaturally juicily flesh of the rodent-- even Icicleripple's poor off hunting skills could succeed with ease here- it wasn't the same.

The she-cat wanted to feel at peace for just a moment. Yet at the same time couldn't bring herself to forget what was left behind, what ThunderClan was struggling with. It was most likely a fair assumption to say they were still not too well.. as much every non-existent fiber of being wanted to hope for the best.

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[Panda1440]

If there was anything about StarClan, it was that they didn't really care. No others came to talk to the former medicine cat, no one to listen to her troubles on how unnatural her demise felt.

.. That wasn't completely true,, cats had come, offering to discuss whatever she wanted. Though Icicleripple had just hidden away near the fake creek running through equally make believe forest.

And as she watched the chaos of Aspenstar's death, (who the she-cat promptly ignored to help up into the stars) Dawnstar having took over ThunderClan with the different reactions from her clanmates. And just recently- as the fox-hearted leader decided to finally leave, the clan attempted to piece back together. Oh how she yearned to be back on ThunderClan soil, helping out her clanmates. Though what have you been doing for the new medicine cats.. . !

Was she any better than the rest of the cats residing in the ranks above, simply watching- not doing. Thoughts thoughts thoughts! Yeah, it was true that Icicleripple hadn't exactly visited Sundust or Rosepaw. But hey, they probably would not have wanted to see another member of their clan (?) on the verge of a breakdown. Still, now as she tapped her front paw against a tree root- the rhythm an attempt to sooth the mind- not enough had been done.

ThuderClan was still in a rough position, with inner clan struggles present like always. They were weak still, a barest of bones of what they could be. A young sapling amongst olders residing next to them.

It was fine though, there were cats there that cared about the future. .. hopefully.. . but hey, maybe she would visit someone in dreams (once Icicleripple actually figured it out at least), say hello or something of the sort.