Originally Posted by Lonestar23
Charmpelt knew she was scared. To be honest, he was a little frightened too… after all, this “Dogblood” hardly sounded like the type of cat to be understanding about the situation. Quite the opposite, as a matter of fact. And he didn’t want to find out what would happen if he was found here with Shiverlight. Still, he needed to be brave for the she cat’s sake. If she knew that he was afraid… if she found out.... then she might change her mind about being here in the first place. And that was the last thing Charmpelt wanted. ”He’s not going to find out. You’re in RiverClan territory now, remember? He wouldn’t risk coming over here, he’s not supposed to be over here… you’re safe for right now. I promise. Now why don’t you settle down and stop worrying and we can just have tonight?” Tonight. It was all Charmpelt wanted, the evening with his love, a quiet, comfortable moment that the two of them would share… forever, now.
Even if he never saw Shiverlight again, they would always have this evening, one that was filled with sweet moments between than two. Charmpelt wanted nothing more than to snuggle up next to the ShadowClanner and spend the night there. He loved her. Right now he was being selfish, bringing her here when she was scared… but he really couldn’t help it. All he wanted was to be with her. That was all he had wanted for the past two or three moons, and he was glad this was finally happening. If only she hadn’t taken on a mate. If only she had just waited a little longer, just until the tom was able to figure out a way for them to be together, they wouldn’t be in this mess. Part of Charmpelt was angry with her for doing something so stupid, and the other part of him knew that she had done the right thing, in the end.
They couldn’t be together. She was right, it was silly to think that they really had a future when he knew the truth. Even if he could get rid of Dogblood, what reassurance did he have that there wouldn’t be another tom? And then another, and then another? He wasn’t sure how to get rid of feelings altogether. Shiverlight was, after all, quite pretty when she wasn’t scowling, or snapping, or thrusting her face in yours and threatening to claw it off. Charmpelt knew that it could take some getting used to when Shiverlight first stopped being horrible, or when you first met her and she acted like the worst, but once you got past that… she was beautiful.
On the inside, that was. She wasn’t the most attractive cat in the world - Jema had been prettier, though Charmpelt might have been bias about that - but Shiverlight was different, and although she would never fill the hole that his old mate had left, she definitely filled a new spot in his heart. The spot that flirting had never been able to fill. Because she was more than a toy… she was special.
(ooh, Charm’ll get the chance to beat up Shiver’s mate… lol… yes, that’d be great!)
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