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°˖✿˚⋆|[ Adderkit ]|⋆˚✿˖°
She/her | Shadowclan kit | 5 moons
“I wish I knew where to find my words so I could speak and be heard.”
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Once seated and less distracted, Adderkit gave herself a moment to process the words from the russet kit. Mushroomkit had said a lot in the small time it took her and Adderkit to get outside the nursery and up onto the mound. The she kit sure did talk a lot, and most of it on her sister that adderkit was quite sure exited or was alive for that matter. The braided tabby cleared some of the snow off the mound, sweeping it off with her tail and watching as it piled up at the bottom. She then patted this cleared spot with her paw, hoping the invitation was recognized by mushroomkit. Okay, now she can process what mushroomkit had said. The russet kit had started by talking about not minding the cold, okay it made sense seeing as similar adderkit herself she also had thick fur. She spoke of being born in leafbare-- was she really that young? And then about liking active games but her sister never played with her and instead tended to sleep. Ah yes Dovekit, Adderkit doesn't remember ever hearing that name before but mushroomkit had referred to her sister enough times to make adderkit believe she must exist.

However adderkit could see any other kit! Was this some sort of game? She didn't get it. She hummed in response as mushroomkit continued to talk. She sure did like talking, about many things it seemed. Adderkit welcomed this, it filled in what would've been uncomfortable silence for she had realized that talking was not the dark tabbies strong suit. In fact it took adderkit ages to even manage to voice the simplest of sentences. She couldn't even imagine being able to say so much in such little time. Did the other she kit never worry about what to say and how to say it? Did she ever think about pronouncing the words wrong or using the incorrect tone? Did she never worry about regretting saying something and being unable to take it back? Those were just a few things that kept adderkit from approaching any conversations unless forced to or allowed to answer with a simple yes or no. Sometimes she tried to think of a response but that is how it stayed, as thoughts and not spoken words.

The question mushroomkit asked her was surprisingly interesting and something adderkit had actually thought about! It wasn't the usual questions or statements that usually revolved around clan status and achievements within the clan but instead an abstract question about one of the many beauties of nature. That got the corners of Adderkit's mouth to quirk up in a small smile. So maybe adderkit wasn't the only one that found herself pondering such questions, observing such things considered unimportant. Mushroomkit seemed to have an understanding of snowflakes that adderkit didn't know and she sat here observing them every day. Her ears angled in mushroomkit's direction as she took in the russet's words. To her snowflakes were the tiniest puffs of clouds, frozen by the cold winds of the sky. When too cold these puffs of clouds would break away and slowly flutter down and down and down. Descending from their high thrones in the sky and becoming one with soft pristine snow beneath her paws. Each snowflake was different, none ever looked the same. Unique in its own little way, always pretty and delicate. However no matter how different and unique they all ended up the same in the end, merging with the snow. Their patterns lost and the traits swallowed and changed form and shape to match their new environment. They were no longer special, no longer different. Just another speck of snow in an ocean of white. Sad really, to lose such beauty.

Dark green eyes focused back on the russet and white she-kit as she tried to respond. She wanted to say she agreed with whoever Mushroomkits mother was, about how every snow flake was different. She wanted to say how she had observed the snow falling from the sky on the first day of leaffall, she wanted to reply to the last comment that Mushroomkit had said. Comparing adderkit to a snowflake. She wasn't sure whether to consider it a compliment or not. Either way, now the sentence seemed right in her mind and she ended up just staring which in itself was worse. What should she ask? Or say?? Mushroomkit should continue talking so Adderkit did have to but it seemed as if the other kit was waiting for a response. Adderkit looked back down at her paws and scratched three lines into the snow, one of this line was a bit shorter than the others so she erased it by wiping snow over it and started again. She repeated this action until she had three lines of equal length and all straight.

"I suppose I'm not" she finally managed to reply, it still didn't sound right and she wished she could've never said it at all but she could just take back words so instead she tried to change the topic. How about dovekit? Dovekit. Dovekit. Dove.

Is dovekit a ghost, I can't see her? No that did sound right. You sister, is she here? No no something else. Dovekit Dovekit dovekit. "is dovekit dead?" That's not what she meant to say. "s-sorry, I meant- uh- I- " three lines, three lines. She scratched three lines Infront of her before continuing. "I meant to say I can't see dovekit"

( Mushroomkit; @Dolomedes )