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Wispypaw
Wash him deep where the tides are turning
+ she/her[they/them to those she has told] + Heightened Perception [hearing, active]

It seemed like almost everyone they knew in their short life had a way of telling where exactly where the paw was hiding, Wispypaw had days where they wanted to be around others and days they very much preferred to be left alone to their own devices. Today had been that day that they wanted to be left alone to stew in whatever emotion had its grip on them for the moment. So pray why did their weirdo of a father come seeking them out with one other sibling in tow, which sibling was it?! They just wanted to be in their little hidey hole for one whole day but noooo, there was always someone dragging them out of it. They sought it out even more now that their hearing was painfully good and they were one loud noise away from ripping their ears off. Don’t even get them started over the fact it was their preferred bed time, was nothing going to ever go their way for once!? If they ever get their paws on their father it was over, pay back for this soon to be disaster of a meeting that was supposedly happening.

At this very moment they were irritated at the prospect of being bothered to gather together with the rest of the misfits of a family. Did no one learn from the last one? It had been nothing but a mess, yelling and crying and what did they get out of it? Nothing. Absolutely nothing came from it but emotional pain and suffering, pretty sure they also lost a sibling in that mess too. They may not be able to see but they sure did notice the lacking presence of a certain sibling. They’ve also noticed that another sibling has vanished, not sure who but there was a startling lack of another body that they’ve learned to differentiate from scent. That was none of their business anyways, they may be family by blood but their actions sure didn’t say much. Out of all their siblings they’ve only interacted with maybe three of them so far, sad, only three had bothered to realize they existed. Made the last family meeting seem kind of ironic when it had come about showing attention, bygones where bygones no longer did they bother to care about it anymore.

Wispypaw was about to voice out their irritation at the long walk but it seemed it was pointless to do so now, they stopped. Wispypaw had no idea what they were standing in front of so they sure as hell gave no reaction to it, besides noting the smell of the outskirts. They idly wondered why they traversed so far from camp just to stand on the edge of the territory. They also didn’t ‘see’ the fake smile that their weirdo father had on his face, was this a ploy to make them go nuts? Whatever he wanted to show them, it better be good otherwise he had another thing coming to him for wasting their time with this silly field trip. Maybe someone would be willing to describe to them what exactly they were supposedly going to be looking at. Yet again more silence, did they go deaf too? They were already blind but in no way could they handle being deaf too! What in the hell were they all staring at, the paw was aware of passing through some vines and into a cave or whatever but that was it.

”What in the hell am I looking at” they muttered, someone outta remembers that they can't see what everyone else is seeing. They obviously understood it was flowers, but how were they supposed to understand what weirdo was rambling about if they didn’t know what the damn thing looked like. Today he was being extra weird, like at the meeting that he had last talked to them in. Wispy blankly stared ahead in clear annoyance, if they had known this was going to turn into some sappy retelling of a story between their parents, they wouldn’t have joined. What was even the point of all this, was he was trying to seek help from his own kids to get back together with ma or just wallow in depression. They would have to burst that bubble since wispy saw no fixing that relationship that he once had. So far into their thoughts they hadn’t noticed their fathers presence vanish for a moment and return.

They bent their head down as they pulled the object, which they could feel was a flower, closer to their face. Sure it smelt nice but they didn’t quite understand the appeal to the flower that their father seemed to have this obsession with at the moment. Wispypaw raised an blind eye as they stared in their fathers general direction in question. No sight didn’t mean they couldn’t pick up certain tones others used around them and it sure seemed like he sounded ready to break down crying. What could possibly have their father be so emotional right this moment, were they having another family fall out again? Oh god please not this again, what was left of their broken family did not need anything else to make it worse. Mirepaw? She was still alive? And she actively made the choice to not come back home, to leave them all behind. Guess they followed after Howling in that matter, just minus the tantrum that they threw.

”Your mother is dead.”

Huh

What

WHAT

That had to be a bold faced lie that he was spinning to gain some sort of sympathy for something, they didn’t what but it had to be it. No way would ma tell them all of that sweet talking of being just as good as their siblings. Of always being able to seek her out in their time of their shortcomings, just to die the very next. That wasn’t fair, life may not be fair but that didn’t mean that they had to lose someone after opening up a bit. Needle-like claws dug into the ground, cutting through the flower they still held in their paws. Wispypaw couldn’t tell where their grief began and where their anger ended, it was like trying to balance on a log. Stuck between two warring emotions in them, that wouldn’t quell down. They paid no mind to the fact that they longer felt their twin anywhere near them anymore, must have run off.They could hear Birdpaw, or they assumed it was them, start screaming at whom they assumed would be their father.

Where they really going to go and blame bleedingpaw again? Did everyone in this damn family like to play the blame game before realizing the problem might actually be themselves? Pathetic, seemed that some of their siblings were as dumb as their clanmates back at camp, brain too small to see the big picture. The whole damn reason this family was broken and a mess was on all of them and not solely on one single cat, after all it takes a team to win. Boy they sure all won together, and their prize was this broken, frayed family. ”Tch” they clutched the flower in their paws as they tried to make sure to face away from birdpaw’s direction. ”I'm with Quilpaw over here, why must you place blame on Bleedingpaw? Is merely existing a crime to you? Must be so in your own little worlds but face facts, everything thats happening is on this whole family” now it was a waiting game to see what kind of poison Moonpaw would say. At this point it was expected to hear them making jabs at Bleedingpaw, they had made their feelings pretty clear at the last meeting. They wouldn’t be like Quietpaw and run away in a blur of emotions, instead, they stayed planted beside Cinderpaw, tail wrapped around their paws. They slide her blind gaze back in Darkfalls direction again, eyes narrowing at him, staring him down. ”Start anew? Do you plan on sticking through with that, this time, or will those be empty words? Because if it’s empty words you can eat those words yourself” tired of empty words and empty promises. They had still recalled that last chat that they had with him during a meeting, it had felt more like speaking to a stranger than their actual father.

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