[SSakii]

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Your deputy has arrived…
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~ PebbleSplash’s Meower Blog/J ~

‎‧₊˚✧[@SplashyPebs.]✧˚₊‧

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Original drawing by @/Ciitrus_Fruitz | Edited By Me!
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  ˚๑ .✦PebbleSplash ✦. ๑˚
♡・・・ ꒰She/Her꒱ ・・・♡

꒦ ︶ ꒷ ︶ ꒷ ꒦

Age ﹕✦ — 42 Moons.

Gender ﹕✧ — Female.

Hobbies﹕✦ — Patrolling, going on walks, sunbathing, and training cats!

Alias ﹕✧ — Pebs, Pebsie!

‎‧₊˚✧[Be the best you can be, and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise,]✧˚₊‧

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Day 1…
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Ever since I was just a young apprentice, I knew I wanted to be something… At first, I only thought I would simply be just a pretty face, but now, I have become so much more than I thought I would… I must be blessed to get this lucky, with my countless errors… I’ve made so many mistakes, yet I’ve been given so many chances… It’s only made me think about how long this will keep up, and how much longer I will remain like this… Nevertheless, I’m thankful… I’m thankful that the unknown will always have my back, and even if I fall, I will be safe.

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Day 2…
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Seriously, this isn’t my first fox in a badger’s den situation… I’ll be honest, I was so scared that my actions would screw me over for the future… Gosh, I was so… terrified that my biggest regrets would bite me in the ass just about now… It’s beyond scary, you know? I get so scared sometimes… Once again, I am thankful to have supporting paws to lift me when I’m about to fall… I’m thankful to be here, home… I enjoy being home…

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Day 3…
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Death is terrible and inescapable… It’s a sad truth, but what can we do? Death always seems to take away those that have done the best… Maybe that’s why I’m still here… At some point, everyone is going to disappear and it’s so hard to accept… I’m getting older, and although I’m so thankful for everything I’ve earned, I want to do more, I want to be more. I want to make a name for myself, wether that means I let myself die as a hero, or I truly BE the hero… I will never ever be the villain of my story and that is a fact…

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Day 4…
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What is so special about home? To me, home is a place used to describe safety, sanctuary, structure… Home is a place where you can find your favorite people, places and things… Home isn’t always where you were born, rather, it’s where you grew… And RiverClan is my home… What does home mean to you…? Yes, you. The one reading with me… What makes home special? They say home is where the heart is, and my heart is with you…

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Day 5…
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I’m not sorry. I’m not sorry that I’m Pebblesplash… I don’t need you to like me, because I like myself. My passive, hardened heart is mine to love and not yours to judge. Judgment is inescapable, yet it is also invaluable. Judgment is not criticism and I’ve learned that… StarClan, I want to be a deputy… I want to be part of something, I want to take the criticisms and make everything better while using my own experiences…

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Day 6…
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I have decided to shut down my account so soon… Apologies to those that enjoy my posts, I just think living is better than being on social media. I wanted to try something new, by coming here, and have ultimately decided that Meower is not for me. I will post a bit, but not daily… Thanks again everyone for giving me another opportunity to do something, and for sticking by me through this short journey… I can’t wait for what comes next…

⁃ SplashyPebs.

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Day 9…
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This is not my usual post length… I kind of missed you guys…! I got injured, but I’m healing. I will hang out here till I’m fully recovered…

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Day 17…
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I have taken some time to myself to focus on who I want to be and what exactly I want to do. I was basically lost before this, and slowly, I’m finding my place. I find myself wondering if others are like me… Lost and discouraged… Who is it that I want to be…?

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Day 24…
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I do the same thing every day, yet those around me seem proud. I can’t patrol, and I can’t hunt but I’ve still found a place… I’m lucky to be loved. I love RiverClan.

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Day 31…
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I wasn’t chosen, which is a bit upsetting. However, I couldn’t be happier for the cat that got chosen… LarkWing, my dear friend and nest neighbor. She’s an honest to stars sweetheart with a whole life ahead of her. She’s going to do great, I know it…

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Day 36…
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I can be ignorant… My eyes so locked on my duties, that I go blind to the things that matter… One of these things is my sweet daughter, BirdPaw… I don’t even know how to talk to her anymore. Things have just gotten so hard… So hard for her… I want to say the right things but I don’t know what she needs to hear… I wonder if loving her is enough…

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Day 41…
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GingerStar is dead.

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Day 45…
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Look upon me as I wear every last one of my disgusting, diseased errors… Like an infection, a freshly healed scar, it’ll be plastered to my skin and forever exposed… I have nothing to hide from you. I find liars more distasteful than anything I could ever do. I stand here, open, my secrets on display for the very earth we love… I do this because I love you…

Who am I? What am I? How did I get here? These are common questions from a commoner like me. Commoner is not a word I often use, for it doesn’t really have much of a meaning… However, I can tell you that I’m far from being a unique individual. Hundreds of cats may have had my prefix, or suffix… How many PebbleSplash’s has there been? It doesn’t matter.

Everyone is like a fish in the river… You never know what you’ll pull out, but you know it isn’t going to be something new… It will always be a fish… It’s all about the time they are consumed that differentiates the bad and the good. I, PebbleSplash, am just another fish in your river… Or am I? Flash back!

My grandmother told me that I would only be a pretty face. I loved her to bits, but I know that she was wrong about my place within this clan. I have exceeded her expectations, everyones, including my own. The fur on my head just comes along with the charge I bring to this clan, the energy i carry, even when I feel alone.

Can you see it? The light, the flame, the very reason I have stayed? Because through the light, the dark, the pain, I have stuck it to my name. I worked real hard, I’ve tried to be good, I did everything for you. RiverClan is where I start, but I only love you. You. The family I never had. Every Tom, every She-cat. I devote myself to the eldest elder to the youngest kitten in the nursery.

Because you’re not just in my heart, you’re my home… I want to be your deputy…

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DEPUTY? Isn’t that a bit ambitious for a girl like you? Oh, absolutely, but I’m not just doing this for me! I’m doing this for RiverClan, and the people that look up to me and my characters. At the end of the day, the role of deputy doesn’t come down to the character, and rather, it’s the roleplayer. Maybe I’m a bit egotistical, but I’d say I’ve shown myself on more than one occasion worthy of this position. While being active on this website for a while, I’ve also been inviting and willing. Yes, I’ve had my ups and downs, but we all have, and a simple mistake shouldn’t label someone… Take PebbleSplash as an example of that. PebbleSplash has had an active presence within her clan that goes beyond her just being a character. She’s a strong representative of what RiverClan is and has always been. Strength, Responsibility, Integrity and Resilience are all things needed in one that takes on a leadership role, and I strongly believe that PebbleSplash is a great example of those exact qualities. Not only have I dedicated myself to RiverClan, she has too.
I love roleplaying, and I’ve always wanted to be a HR. I know that whoever gets chosen will have the best in mind for this river, just remember to send my lady hunting! Good luck to everyone, and can I get a PEBBLEDEP from all you Pebble supporters?
Lol seriously, good luck everybody.
Ignore the fact that I reused an application, I love the format of this.

- Ps: Claim your “PebbleSplash for deputy,” shirt on my profile by using the code “PEBBLEDEP,” in the vm section of my profile. Everyone will have a shirt made for them, just send me a copy of your pfp! -
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