[ameko]

@Ludicrous Lunacy
[oops im making fennelnose depressed but maybe they'll recover in the roleplays to come]

That earlier conversation had drained them. All those thoughts about Pigeonfleck had resurfaced, and now they wanted nothing more than to get away from it all. Fennelnose looked visibly exhausted, which was... strange. They usually hid the majority of their feelings, but even a blind cat could tell that they were bone-weary. Too much was on their plate; and yet, they had thought that exact same thing when they were merely a warrior. There was something wrong with them, they confirmed. Everything looked darker: the trees in front of them, the sky, their future. What would they do when Jayspot and Remorapaw left them because of how disconnected they'd been? What if Dawncloud left? Tilting their head back and gazing up at the sky, they noticed that it was rapidly reaching sundown, due to the beginnings of Silverpelt appearing. It was an almost serene sight, had they not been thinking such terrible things. Plagued by their worries, they whispered, "StarClan, please tell me, am I being a good parent to Remora and Jay?" Fennelnose watched for a sign, desperation in their eyes. Many seconds passed, and there was no answer. Complete, utter silence. Truly, there had to be something wrong with Fennelnose.

Moons ago, raw anger would have bloomed in their chest and they likely would have made a silly decision, resulting in an irreversible injury. Now, all they could do was let out a long sigh.